We have now

I think a lot about being present, yet my intentions and lived reality often diverge.

But I don’t want to continue ruminating on things that have gone wrong in the past. And then find myself having a little pity party.

Likewise, I want to live free of the fantasy of ‘if only…’  or ‘when…’

And I suspect I am not alone, especially in these days when now feels so fragile and littered with the fallout from past decisions.

Yet these are times for us to be fully rooted in the present, to reveal who we are and where we are now. Not wishing away this moment.

The beloved children’s author, Michael Rosen, wrote a poignant piece to his children and grandchildren after surviving an extended induced coma early in the pandemic.

It is a beautiful counterbalance to our desire for certainty. And our inherent tendency to think that activism, and changing the world, are all about what we are going to do. Rather than emerging from who we are together in this moment.

Dear Children: 

We never know for certain
that’s the one thing we do know for certain

that we never know.

What we always have is now
The moment before the next moment

It’s only the next moment we’re not sure about

So whatever we have got to do

We’ve got to do now

In the moment we have for certain

That’s what I’m trying to do
I can see you’re trying to do things too

You’re doing them now
That’s good

It’s the only time you can do things
But you know that

+ Michael Rosen, from ‘Many Different Kinds of Love: A story of life, death and the NHS’, 2021

Thanks to Margaret Gearty for her beautifully crafted blog, An Activism of Abundance, the concluding piece in a wonderfully thoughtful series.

The image is my other now moment with the Welsh Cobs…

Pause. See differently. Re-story 🌿

This week

It is finally dawning on me that we cannot embrace becoming and our search for change if we try to start anywhere else but here, now, in this moment.

This week also included eye surgery on Wednesday. It went well and I’m grateful for extraordinary care.

A few good words

I hope you might be up for another dose of the On Being podcast: The Body’s Grace.

Last week, Krista Tippett revisited a profound conversation with Matthew Sanford in 2006. Having now heard Matthew’s story of surviving massive physical trauma as a young teenager and now inhabiting a different kind of physical space, I understand why… 🌿