There is only now

Torrent of water pouring over the water gate at the top of the valley

Plan B is an illusion. Something we tell ourselves is available if things don’t work out as anticipated. But the birds have got it right: there is no plan B (Wild Hope). There is only now and the actions we take today. Because both the context and we have changed. Or, to borrow from Heraclitus: … Read more

Our creative relationship with time

Frost covered wild angelica stems

Paradoxically, we need to pause and consider our relationship with time. Or else our avoidance will drive us to those places that inhibit our creative response. Because time is not linear. Even though the clock disagrees, it is merely an ornament of time, not time itself. And it is by choice that we let the … Read more

Only today is this day

Looking down the valley to the layers of blue and pink sky

We only have this day once. And at the end of a week, which has felt stretched, I am reminded of the need for rest. Not withdrawal from the world, but stepping aside from its immediate demands. So that this season of watching and waiting, preparing and giving, endings and beginnings, can have our attention. … Read more

Wondering how it will end…

Hydrangea petals in different stages of decay

Our craving for certainty is enormous. We want to know what side of the line to be. Whether something is right or wrong or that our understanding is correct. And if it will be successful, otherwise we won’t bother starting. Yet there is glorious, entangled, unknowableness in our wider world – not the little one … Read more

We have now

Close-up of Welsh Cob ponies on the hilltop

I think a lot about being present, yet my intentions and lived reality often diverge. But I don’t want to continue ruminating on things that have gone wrong in the past. And then find myself having a little pity party. Likewise, I want to live free of the fantasy of ‘if only…’  or ‘when…’ And … Read more

Being accompanied in this moment

Seeing the lake and the hill beyond through the trees

There are particular places where we regain our sense of perspective. One of mine is a mossy perch above the lake. IN THIS MOMENT We are fleeting,but we are not alone. All creation joins uson this journey of life,made up of little nowsthat string togetheracross time and place. Here, in this moment,  we are in … Read more

Becoming is in the present tense

Two young swallows perching on a rail in the alpacas field shelter

Becoming is not a destination. It’s a process. And it only ever happens in the here and now. So, if we’re constantly looking back on the circumstances and decisions that brought us to this point, we’ll miss it. Or if we’re only ever asking, ‘Are we there yet?’ our focus on the destination will mean … Read more

Being quiet enough to be surprised

a beautiful pink rose

Unless we want to be distracted, we generally don’t like interruptions. So when can we be open enough to being delightfully surprised? Here in the valley, that takes being quiet and being present. The shy wren isn’t going to come close if I am dashing around. And I won’t notice the beauty of the rose … Read more

Tempo Giusto – at the right speed

feather upside down at the water's edge

It takes being fully invested in the present to know the right speed because there are no ‘do-overs’. “Be fast when it makes sense to be fast, and be slow when slowness is called for. Seek to live at what musicians call the tempo giusto – the right speed.” + Carl Honoré, from ‘In Praise … Read more

Being in the arc of time

slice of tree trunk showing different tree rings and moss on the bark

Yesterday, I was reminded that here in the valley, we do not have time. We can’t be rigidly bound to a to-do list if a tree is down and blocking the road. So even if I’d wanted to be elsewhere, I couldn’t get out until we’d cleared the debris and made the tree safe. And … Read more